October 6, 2011


Thirty, Flirty and Thriving?

In commemoration of Steve Jobs' inspiring life, I'm re-posting my blog, which featured his moving speech in 2005 Standford University Commencement Exercises.

"You've got to find what you love..." - Steve Jobs (February 24, 1955 – October 5, 2011)




It’s almost two years now since I reached the BIG 3-O dilemma.  To this date, I still feel the chill of the reality sinking into my being.  Has it really been three decades? And the long years of living along the fast lane has finally caught up on me and now I’m faced with the inevitable - exiting the freeways for the service roads to get at my real destination.

But where am I really going? That’s when it gets a little scary ‘coz, honestly, I haven’t really figured it out.  I have stalled in a mode where I look at 30 as a far-fetched vista from where I am standing. I conveniently dismissed any pressure with the thought that I am still young. I was convinced that it’s a smart way of self-preservation. I’ll just cross the bridge when I get there, so I said.  And then the "mystical" bridge came. Trust me, the cross over was almost as painfully lyrical as the Angel song of Sarah Mclachlan (Read: “Spend all your time waiting for a second change, for a break that would make it okay. There’s always some reason to feel not good enough…").

I still vividly remember the moments when Van (my girl_friend) and I were singing to the tune of Plumb’s REAL - “Look at me I’m 23, beautiful, a sight to see tonight!” during our carefree night-outs. Can’t believe that’s almost a decade ago.  And every time I look at the mirror and sing to that same tune, I get chills ‘coz I can’t own up to it anymore.  Suddenly I felt so validated that beauty is really skin-deep! Thank God! (winks!)

Reality checks here. Reality checks there. Now I’m having a profound affair with reality.  Gone are the days when the only affairs I maintain are the “tricky” ones with another lost human being. Now I have to think twice whether it’s worth it. Most of the time, I’d rather be alone because it’s less complicated. Reality checks… again. See?!

After graduating from college, I have this clear vision of myself making it through the real world. Thwarting every obstacle that comes my way.  Being filthy rich by the time I get 30. Then reality bites here. Reality bites there.  
Sometimes, I regret watching “Reality Bites” movie, ‘coz it burst my bubble of a romantic vision of myself conquering the world. It kept me grounded.

Now that I am 30-ish, I have gone through the rite of passage. I know it’s okay to feel a little petrified. But it’s juvenile to make excuses anymore.   

I want to close this with a video of Steve Jobs' 2005 Stanford Commencement 
Address. I hope you get an inspiration out of it the same way I got mine.


12 comments:

vanishiwa said...

i can relate to this bro, even if im not yet 30..

Karlie Bradshaw said...

Don't be sis, bata ka pa... just enjoy the power and beauty of your youth! chos! There's a natural law of order... don't be ahead of your time. :)

Leah said...

Weeee!! Relate to the max ako.. kasi I'm already 30-ish.. haha.. Parang ambilis lang ng panahon. Imagine.. 3decades? tsk... Have I accomplished anything? Yes? Maybe?

Karlie Bradshaw said...

Hi Leah! Yan yung mga scary questions - Have I accomplished anyhing? - I dread the days... hehe Thanks for visiting! :)

van said...

waaaahhh, buti nlng i still have 5 more years before i reach the 30ish age, but even me can't own the "real" song anymore... another year and another +1 (age) for us..

Karlie Bradshaw said...

To aging gracefully, Van! Cheers! haha

goldi said...

Karlie, karlie, karlie... I can super relate with this post as we are on the same boat named "30-ish". Hehehe. I wanted to say amen to this quote of yours:

"Now that I am 30-ish, I have gone through the rite of passage. I know it’s okay to feel a little petrified. But it’s juvenile to make excuses anymore."

Salamat sa pagbisita sa blog ko :). I have not touched it for a while and I don't think I'd be able to touch it on a regular basis but it's still breathing at the least. Hehehe. I appreciate your visits. Thanks and God bless you more!

Karlie Bradshaw said...

Thanks, Goldi! Touch ako naka-relate ka sa blog ko... that meant a lot to me! ;)

tndcallphilippines said...

age... its all in the mind. and besides, i read somewhere that 30's is the new 20s... hehe.:)

Karlie Bradshaw said...

Tnx for dropping by tndcallphiippines! ;) i guess that's a healthier way to look at it! Guess i need some attitude reprogramming to make! Hehe

Yas Jayson said...

Isang bagay na dapat ipagpasalamat ang pagdating ng mga kaarawan.

Yas,

Karlie Bradshaw said...

HI Yas Jayson! Thanks for the visit... really appreciate it. :) Yeah, tama ka naman dun... we should celebrate LIFE! :)